It has been ages since I have posted and I know that. I have been super busy doing that which I want to do most. Being a mom. What I hope is a really great mom.
I left behind a job, no a career, that I loved where I was doing something meaningful and great. It mattered. It mattered to me and it made a difference for others. I loved it.
I made the really hard (for me) choice to leave my job, that I loved, to be home with my kids. It wasn’t easy.
I soon found that I needed to make a living, and I needed to keep thinking and working. That was for me and I needed it. Luckily I found a way to do that. With that has come some great opportunities and I am so very thankful.
But today, something really great came along. Something that I wanted so much to be able to do, and I had to say “no”. It hurt. It made me wonder if I am still the amazing person that I once was. The one that I saw in my future when I was young. But I said no because it just wouldn’t work for me. It wouldn’t fit into the schedule of the times when I need to be there for my kids. After all, I did give up something great, and promised myself I was going to be even greater at my new undertaking…being a mom. So I made the hard choice. The choice to start where I am today everyday and bloom where I am planted, hoping that the opportunity arises again. And then I was reading this book that my mother in law sent me: I’ve Been Thinking by Maria Shriver and I found this quote. It helped. It helped a lot. Maybe…I can still be an amazing person that makes a huge difference in the world……at home…and then the world through them. Maybe, just maybe. So today that is my focus for me.
And for those who don’t live in a place with a “drop in daycare option” no siblings or parents near by, I hear you. It was such a small thing that if I had the option like that I could have done it. And if you have that option…please tell them thank you today. Realize what you have is truly a gift.